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DPFU
04:26
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Hey I won't be in today
I've got problems distinguishing what is real
And overwhelming existential thoughts
Say, you ever wonder what's the right way to think about it all
Cause when I try I don't know, it's always the same spiral that lands on too weird
Can it be
Happening
Life, the strangest dream I ever had
Alone wandering the absurd and the mad
Everything is so bizzare and here I'm cognizant, it's surreal
The oddity of thinking thoughts and how profound emotions feel
I can't accept this plane
Of being it's insane
Crushing weight of sentience
Are we all one and perspective the mental walls
Or am I deranged and imagining it all
What does it mean to be a human being
Is it when you're wearing jeans, or going jogging
What does it mean to be a human being
Is it reading magazines, or getting coffee
Feel as if it's like im floating constantly
No connection holds me to reality
Far away, I'm distant from the life I lead
Second hand experience I don't believe
Life, the strangest dream I ever had
Slipping further from a state of normalcy
Constantly alarming thoughts that torment me
Cortisol and adrenaline have hit warp speed
Could it be a series of false memories
Alone wandering the absurd and the mad
You're gonna find a way
There'll be a better day
I don't know anymore
Sick of thinking about all this bullshit
It's always too damn loud in my head
In my head seems to be where I live.. fuck
Hey you won't see me again
I've no longer got the strength to deal
With all these existential thoughts
Say you ever wonder what's the best way if you wanna end it all
I'm just asking for a friend
Depersonalisation and feelings of unreality
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2. |
Best of Intentions
03:06
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Get shot you fucking cunt
You'd like forgiveness but for me it's not done
So fuck off into the past
So far back no memory can last
Opened myself to you
Retarded piece of shit I am it's true
Thought like maybe I'll trust
But all I got was this bitter disgust
Best of intentions
Believe and feel
Pushing a day dream that was never real
Hope pinned on questions
You fully knew
Chose to pretend like it would all come through
Playing a victim of circumstance
Duplicity from an old hand
Best of intentions
What a joke
No thanks for fanning my ass with your smoke
So what is it you get out of fucking with a person's head
Is it to steal their last smile
Or just to have them run your liar's mile
Act like you're sincere
Innocent's a useful way to appear
Sweetly sham and supplicate and call it one time mistakes
Then shoot and shed, motherfucking snake
You think you really could
Know somebody really good
You're really just easy prey
In the moment
I never even noticed
It didn't enter my mind to consider
That you weren't what I saw
Best of intentions
Believe and feel
Pushing a day dream that was never real
Hope pinned on questions
You fully knew
Chose to pretend like it would all come through
Playing a victim of circumstance
Duplicity from an old hand
Best of intentions
What a joke
I'd like to know that when you think back you choke
I guess you really can't
Know just really where you stand
The real threat is faith in loyalty
Back then my dopey ass was deficient in awareness
But even on reflection it was quite the show
These days don't got reserves to be too careless
So if I get another like you, I'll be saying I'm done, fuck it
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3. |
Life Waste
03:13
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So cold is the breath of time
Not a care for you
Slowly like a statue
And soulless like a stone
Get up
Look
Forward
Not down
They will misguide, don't eat the lies
Try to return
They will misguide, don't eat the lies
Try to reason
They will misguide, don't eat the lies
Try to remain
Piss away a day
Never to reclaim
The chances it contained
Now there's one day less
To achieve a death that is not a life waste
Take a shit on chance
Fucking understand that you die with your name
Always one day less
To be proud in death
Or forever life waste
So old is the story
Not a shred to show
Regret like a full cup
Refused by a fool
Face up
Know
Accept
Control
They will misguide, don't eat the lies
Hold tight, subvert
They will misguide, don't eat the lies
Hold tight, seize dawn
They will misguide, don't eat the lies
Hold tight, sustain
No one's here to stay
We all go away some day
If no one's here to stay, then what's the point in trying to attain
Once you're dead was it worth the pain
Piss it all away
Never to reclaim
Life waste
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4. |
Stravin' a Hoke
03:54
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Don't waste no time piling down the numbers
Moving too fast, got to escape the thunder
My limbs alien
Mouth dry, head hot
Terrified I'm not blending in
Vision slowed to snapshots
A moment's all it takes
To make that grave mistake
Before you know you did
You're going in
Sometimes I feel like my mind is broke
Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke
Maybe I'm just too far soaked
Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke
Time standing still
Faces all around me
Feeling a little ill
Fearing they can all see
Sometimes I feel like my mind is broke
Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke
Maybe I'm just ultra doped
Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke
Spinning out like a pitiful joke
Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke
Maybe I'm just beyond blown
Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke
How long will this last, seems like years have passed
Dreading what's next, the panic chokes my chest
Hoping that I can make it out of this nightmare OK
Knowing I will awake to the searing burn of shame
[monologue]
Sometimes I feel like my mind is broke
Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke
Maybe I'm just fucking smoked
Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke
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5. |
Here's Home
03:23
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Sometimes evil stands right in the open
Invites you through it's doors then starts to close in
While you sleep panels slide and hatches creak
At all times eyes are watching you can't hide
Here's home
Where the devil's rats roam, unknown
In a maze of bones
He picks how they die
Come and stay for the rest of your life
No escape from the murder castle
Through the crooked hallways
Countless rooms stretch on
Some built for simple killing
Some more for twisted fun
Soundproof and windowless too
None will hear the screams
Experiments in torturing
Malevolence extreme
Asphyxiating in a vault
Or starving in the dark and cold
Feel the noose around your neck
Or have the torches cook your flesh
When the end is near
The corpse must disappear
Dissolving in quick lime pits
Or burning up in the furnace
Here's home
Where the devil's rats roam, unknown
In a maze of bones
He picks how they die
This home
A labyrinth of spirals, trials
Graveyard of ghosts
He chose how they died
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Spite
02:51
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You fist that spinning blade right in front of my eyes
I'm being sprayed with bits of hand while you smile
Spite
There goes the nose, and there goes the face
But your laughing skull, still proud to hate
Spite
Grinning through the blood and bone
Directing a vivid show
Disfigured, purely to throw
Hate and spite, clutching control
Drink it up
Your poison
I've had enough
So finish it
Just die then
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7. |
Autopilot
04:58
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All systems loaded
Operation ready
But the driver can't be reached
Hazardous conditions require redesign
Control decentralised
And on it goes and goes, forward with no end
Yet sadly never knows what it's like to live
Autopilot
Winding through the world
Protected
Unaffected
But never connected
A critical issue to normal function
The host is lost within
Robotic movements and blank decisions
An uncanny illusion
Ought to try and roll back to a build
More collected and effective with true conscious directive
Can you see
Someone's inside, a look in the eyes
Do you feel
Something's not right, has this one survived
I can see to the outside, I'm still alive
Tried to flee, thought I could hide now I'm stuck inside
Locked within, this shell I once commanded
Can only observe, as it leaves me empty handed
And on it goes, dead shadow, zombie apparatus
Sadly I'm here, haven't disappeared, the tightening hold traumatic
Acted in fear, tried to run from being present
Guess you can't come back, once you've gone too long suspended
Autopilot winding through the world
Protected, unaffected, but never connected
Autopilot, I'm stuck in myself
Wish I could return because I'm trapped in living hell
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8. |
Slavering
03:25
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You can't resist getting obsessed
With all the big new trends
No won't get trumped
By all these other chumps
It's straight to the deep end
Give it away, put yourself on display
Anything to get ahead
Not quite whoring and your ego is soaring
Too bad your soul is long dead
Nothing's ever free
Keep that in mind
While you're consuming
Who's sucking out your spine
Though it's mutual
Corporate cuck
You're both slavering
On the other side machine minds hide
Stalking the trail you make
Feeding overlords the data they absorb
To guide you to cooperate
But push it out
Any doubts
That hinder your habits
You're both just
Greedy fucks
Coveting a phallus
Don't you worry product junkie
There's nobody to intervene
So eat it up (two sides of a fly)
Live lie and fuck (one half shits)
You think you're the one (the other eats shit)
You're not special cunt
Don't you worry mister money
You're safe unseen behind a screen
You gotta play the shark (two sides of a fly)
Business is war (one half shits)
Power's a force (the other eats shit)
That gets you right off
You're both slavering
So if you like a real fake life
And hate privacy
Then you'd do fine at the front of the line
For new technology
Bend over and open wide
So they can fit their fist inside
Get what you want just pay the price
It's not much, only your identity
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9. |
Till and Wither
04:33
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Open up them eyes that were so tightly shut
And realise regretfully
Fall out of bed, struggling to clear your head
Shudder with the lack of sleep
Working all day just to buy yourself a way
To rot in peace when your maker say
Vapid and grey, rehashing the same day
You'll rot in your peace if your maker's paid
Ease back into the asinine boredom
And let the routine blank your mind
Watch the hands, on the wall and on your wrists
Steadily abstracting time
Watch the clock from the prison of perspective
See the milestones fall one by one
Soon all opportunity will be over
What have you really done
I feel the fire, aware I will expire
Afraid cause I don't have too long
Everyone I know, who makes up my whole world
Before I know it they'll be gone
So much is lost, spent upon the cost
And dreams never became more
And in the end, lying on that bed
No peace just shaking with remorse
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10. |
Grimsworn
04:46
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Way back before today
A darkness crept slowly that I'd have to obey
Black staff casting
Spells of lasting grief
From beyond this fiend has come
Cursed my very soul from now until I'm done
With each word
Such force
As I'm bound
To it's course
Rule one, you'll have no fun
Every day void of enjoyment
Rule one, you'll have no fun
Nothing but pain going forward
Close your eyes and visualize the world to be a different place
Then wake up and say oh fuck, look around it's all still the same
Rule two, I control you
Only do what you are told to
Rule two, I control you
I'll sap your will till you subdue
Close your eyes and fantasize about all of the things you would change
Then sit up and sigh , oh shucks it's time to do it all again
(You know) it's no use
(You know) the cold truth
(You're no) happy fool
(You know) my name
Try to run, I'll pull on that chain
You'll snap back so hard your spirit will break
Don't cry out, I'll make you insane
I'll destroy your life but you'll be to blame
Outward madman
Inward sad man
Getting bad man
Walking dead man
Scream and submit
Let me hear it
Rule three, you'll die to me
By your own hand but my decree
Rule three, you'll die to me
Empty and tired you will concede
Obey
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11. |
Loops that Lie
03:14
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I'm not leaving the house tonight
I'm on call for the appetite
Of something dark, not something bright
That popped me with it's blight
I don't care about outside
It's all a bit too black and white
I got colours in my mind
Looking for something that I never find
Loops that lie
It's so surreal
That something unreal
Can feel more real
Than the real deal
Anxious it goes alright
Not ready for another fright
Just a good escape from time
That'll keep me satisfied
It's so surreal
That something unreal
Can feel more real
Than the real deal
I can't believe
Barely concieve
How quick you leave
Behind reality
As you go
There will erode
Boundaries that separate
Once you hit
What you came to get
Leave the loop, don't stay too late
If I could go back
What would I do
If in altering the past I'd lose myself
Would you
Get set for another night
Lone trip to the otherside
Circling loops that lie, might never make it out
Tell myself it's the last time
Next thing I know, better hold on tight
Circling loops that lie, might never make it out
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Trapped inside a wooden box
Smothering thick air
No windows, no coffin lock
Just four walls and despair
Sit for hours at a time
Stuporous
Then start clawing at the grime
Desperate
Oh
How I'd love to go
And be free outside
No
This is all I know
Of solitude, confined
Why wait just to hate another day
Despise each breath
Why wait when I can execute my fate
Freedom in death
Imprisoned in a wretched box
Painfully aware
No windows, no coffin lock
Just four walls and despair
Paranoid and seeing signs
From the stress
Feel I'm waiting all the time
To exist
Oh
How I'd love to go
And feel the warm sunshine
No
Guts in my throat
For all I know I've died
I wanna go
And be no one
I wanna go
And be free
I'd like to flow in ether
Floating on
So carefree
Trapped
How I'd love to get out
And leave this nightmare
Not imprisoned in a box
With four walls and despair
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13. |
Dry Hole
04:44
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Dig my grave a mile wide
So I can fit my hopes and dreams inside
Drop me good and deep down into the ground
I've been looking to the depths of my design
Search but can't find a way to feel fine
Life was once a nicer ride
But the fun has gone and died
Now I'm not so sure I want to be here anymore
Lost far below in the depths of my design
Search but can't find a way to feel fine
I've got no use for all this time
Guess I'll head for the exit and die
Can't really say it's been a pleasure but oh fucking well
Take my corpse and burn it
Eradicate my image
Let the flames die out
Dispose of the ashes way underground
Bury my memory
Never again speak my name
My only wish is never to have existed
Even for a moment
Shameful, bitter freak
Despised and disgusting
Loner
Spaced out loser
Toxic negative space
Please just let me disappear
Do not say you care
Do not say it's selfish uh
Let me leave everything forever
There's no coming back but it's for the better
You can't break me in
I'm already out
This world can never win
Cause I'm fucking out
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