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The Petrifying Vacuum

by Caved

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1.
DPFU 04:26
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Hey I won't be in today I've got problems distinguishing what is real And overwhelming existential thoughts Say, you ever wonder what's the right way to think about it all Cause when I try I don't know, it's always the same spiral that lands on too weird Can it be Happening Life, the strangest dream I ever had Alone wandering the absurd and the mad Everything is so bizzare and here I'm cognizant, it's surreal The oddity of thinking thoughts and how profound emotions feel I can't accept this plane Of being it's insane Crushing weight of sentience Are we all one and perspective the mental walls Or am I deranged and imagining it all What does it mean to be a human being Is it when you're wearing jeans, or going jogging What does it mean to be a human being Is it reading magazines, or getting coffee Feel as if it's like im floating constantly No connection holds me to reality Far away, I'm distant from the life I lead Second hand experience I don't believe Life, the strangest dream I ever had Slipping further from a state of normalcy Constantly alarming thoughts that torment me Cortisol and adrenaline have hit warp speed Could it be a series of false memories Alone wandering the absurd and the mad You're gonna find a way There'll be a better day I don't know anymore Sick of thinking about all this bullshit It's always too damn loud in my head In my head seems to be where I live.. fuck Hey you won't see me again I've no longer got the strength to deal With all these existential thoughts Say you ever wonder what's the best way if you wanna end it all I'm just asking for a friend Depersonalisation and feelings of unreality
2.
Best of Intentions 03:06
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Get shot you fucking cunt You'd like forgiveness but for me it's not done So fuck off into the past So far back no memory can last Opened myself to you Retarded piece of shit I am it's true Thought like maybe I'll trust But all I got was this bitter disgust Best of intentions Believe and feel Pushing a day dream that was never real Hope pinned on questions You fully knew Chose to pretend like it would all come through Playing a victim of circumstance Duplicity from an old hand Best of intentions What a joke No thanks for fanning my ass with your smoke So what is it you get out of fucking with a person's head Is it to steal their last smile Or just to have them run your liar's mile Act like you're sincere Innocent's a useful way to appear Sweetly sham and supplicate and call it one time mistakes Then shoot and shed, motherfucking snake You think you really could Know somebody really good You're really just easy prey In the moment I never even noticed It didn't enter my mind to consider That you weren't what I saw Best of intentions Believe and feel Pushing a day dream that was never real Hope pinned on questions You fully knew Chose to pretend like it would all come through Playing a victim of circumstance Duplicity from an old hand Best of intentions What a joke I'd like to know that when you think back you choke I guess you really can't Know just really where you stand The real threat is faith in loyalty Back then my dopey ass was deficient in awareness But even on reflection it was quite the show These days don't got reserves to be too careless So if I get another like you, I'll be saying I'm done, fuck it
3.
Life Waste 03:13
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So cold is the breath of time Not a care for you Slowly like a statue And soulless like a stone Get up Look Forward Not down They will misguide, don't eat the lies Try to return They will misguide, don't eat the lies Try to reason They will misguide, don't eat the lies Try to remain Piss away a day Never to reclaim The chances it contained Now there's one day less To achieve a death that is not a life waste Take a shit on chance Fucking understand that you die with your name Always one day less To be proud in death Or forever life waste So old is the story Not a shred to show Regret like a full cup Refused by a fool Face up Know Accept Control They will misguide, don't eat the lies Hold tight, subvert They will misguide, don't eat the lies Hold tight, seize dawn They will misguide, don't eat the lies Hold tight, sustain No one's here to stay We all go away some day If no one's here to stay, then what's the point in trying to attain Once you're dead was it worth the pain Piss it all away Never to reclaim Life waste
4.
Stravin' a Hoke 03:54
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Don't waste no time piling down the numbers Moving too fast, got to escape the thunder My limbs alien Mouth dry, head hot Terrified I'm not blending in Vision slowed to snapshots A moment's all it takes To make that grave mistake Before you know you did You're going in Sometimes I feel like my mind is broke Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke Maybe I'm just too far soaked Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke Time standing still Faces all around me Feeling a little ill Fearing they can all see Sometimes I feel like my mind is broke Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke Maybe I'm just ultra doped Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke Spinning out like a pitiful joke Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke Maybe I'm just beyond blown Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke How long will this last, seems like years have passed Dreading what's next, the panic chokes my chest Hoping that I can make it out of this nightmare OK Knowing I will awake to the searing burn of shame [monologue] Sometimes I feel like my mind is broke Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke Maybe I'm just fucking smoked Stra-stravin stravin' a hoke
5.
Here's Home 03:23
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Sometimes evil stands right in the open Invites you through it's doors then starts to close in While you sleep panels slide and hatches creak At all times eyes are watching you can't hide Here's home Where the devil's rats roam, unknown In a maze of bones He picks how they die Come and stay for the rest of your life No escape from the murder castle Through the crooked hallways Countless rooms stretch on Some built for simple killing Some more for twisted fun Soundproof and windowless too None will hear the screams Experiments in torturing Malevolence extreme Asphyxiating in a vault Or starving in the dark and cold Feel the noose around your neck Or have the torches cook your flesh When the end is near The corpse must disappear Dissolving in quick lime pits Or burning up in the furnace Here's home Where the devil's rats roam, unknown In a maze of bones He picks how they die This home A labyrinth of spirals, trials Graveyard of ghosts He chose how they died
6.
Spite 02:51
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You fist that spinning blade right in front of my eyes I'm being sprayed with bits of hand while you smile Spite There goes the nose, and there goes the face But your laughing skull, still proud to hate Spite Grinning through the blood and bone Directing a vivid show Disfigured, purely to throw Hate and spite, clutching control Drink it up Your poison I've had enough So finish it Just die then
7.
Autopilot 04:58
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All systems loaded Operation ready But the driver can't be reached Hazardous conditions require redesign Control decentralised And on it goes and goes, forward with no end Yet sadly never knows what it's like to live Autopilot Winding through the world Protected Unaffected But never connected A critical issue to normal function The host is lost within Robotic movements and blank decisions An uncanny illusion Ought to try and roll back to a build More collected and effective with true conscious directive Can you see Someone's inside, a look in the eyes Do you feel Something's not right, has this one survived I can see to the outside, I'm still alive Tried to flee, thought I could hide now I'm stuck inside Locked within, this shell I once commanded Can only observe, as it leaves me empty handed And on it goes, dead shadow, zombie apparatus Sadly I'm here, haven't disappeared, the tightening hold traumatic Acted in fear, tried to run from being present Guess you can't come back, once you've gone too long suspended Autopilot winding through the world Protected, unaffected, but never connected Autopilot, I'm stuck in myself Wish I could return because I'm trapped in living hell
8.
Slavering 03:25
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You can't resist getting obsessed With all the big new trends No won't get trumped By all these other chumps It's straight to the deep end Give it away, put yourself on display Anything to get ahead Not quite whoring and your ego is soaring Too bad your soul is long dead Nothing's ever free Keep that in mind While you're consuming Who's sucking out your spine Though it's mutual Corporate cuck You're both slavering On the other side machine minds hide Stalking the trail you make Feeding overlords the data they absorb To guide you to cooperate But push it out Any doubts That hinder your habits You're both just Greedy fucks Coveting a phallus Don't you worry product junkie There's nobody to intervene So eat it up (two sides of a fly) Live lie and fuck (one half shits) You think you're the one (the other eats shit) You're not special cunt Don't you worry mister money You're safe unseen behind a screen You gotta play the shark (two sides of a fly) Business is war (one half shits) Power's a force (the other eats shit) That gets you right off You're both slavering So if you like a real fake life And hate privacy Then you'd do fine at the front of the line For new technology Bend over and open wide So they can fit their fist inside Get what you want just pay the price It's not much, only your identity
9.
Till and Wither 04:33
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Open up them eyes that were so tightly shut And realise regretfully Fall out of bed, struggling to clear your head Shudder with the lack of sleep Working all day just to buy yourself a way To rot in peace when your maker say Vapid and grey, rehashing the same day You'll rot in your peace if your maker's paid Ease back into the asinine boredom And let the routine blank your mind Watch the hands, on the wall and on your wrists Steadily abstracting time Watch the clock from the prison of perspective See the milestones fall one by one Soon all opportunity will be over What have you really done I feel the fire, aware I will expire Afraid cause I don't have too long Everyone I know, who makes up my whole world Before I know it they'll be gone So much is lost, spent upon the cost And dreams never became more And in the end, lying on that bed No peace just shaking with remorse
10.
Grimsworn 04:46
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Way back before today A darkness crept slowly that I'd have to obey Black staff casting Spells of lasting grief From beyond this fiend has come Cursed my very soul from now until I'm done With each word Such force As I'm bound To it's course Rule one, you'll have no fun Every day void of enjoyment Rule one, you'll have no fun Nothing but pain going forward Close your eyes and visualize the world to be a different place Then wake up and say oh fuck, look around it's all still the same Rule two, I control you Only do what you are told to Rule two, I control you I'll sap your will till you subdue Close your eyes and fantasize about all of the things you would change Then sit up and sigh , oh shucks it's time to do it all again (You know) it's no use (You know) the cold truth (You're no) happy fool (You know) my name Try to run, I'll pull on that chain You'll snap back so hard your spirit will break Don't cry out, I'll make you insane I'll destroy your life but you'll be to blame Outward madman Inward sad man Getting bad man Walking dead man Scream and submit Let me hear it Rule three, you'll die to me By your own hand but my decree Rule three, you'll die to me Empty and tired you will concede Obey
11.
Loops that Lie 03:14
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I'm not leaving the house tonight I'm on call for the appetite Of something dark, not something bright That popped me with it's blight I don't care about outside It's all a bit too black and white I got colours in my mind Looking for something that I never find Loops that lie It's so surreal That something unreal Can feel more real Than the real deal Anxious it goes alright Not ready for another fright Just a good escape from time That'll keep me satisfied It's so surreal That something unreal Can feel more real Than the real deal I can't believe Barely concieve How quick you leave Behind reality As you go There will erode Boundaries that separate Once you hit What you came to get Leave the loop, don't stay too late If I could go back What would I do If in altering the past I'd lose myself Would you Get set for another night Lone trip to the otherside Circling loops that lie, might never make it out Tell myself it's the last time Next thing I know, better hold on tight Circling loops that lie, might never make it out
12.
False Awakening Continuum 03:33
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Trapped inside a wooden box Smothering thick air No windows, no coffin lock Just four walls and despair Sit for hours at a time Stuporous Then start clawing at the grime Desperate Oh How I'd love to go And be free outside No This is all I know Of solitude, confined Why wait just to hate another day Despise each breath Why wait when I can execute my fate Freedom in death Imprisoned in a wretched box Painfully aware No windows, no coffin lock Just four walls and despair Paranoid and seeing signs From the stress Feel I'm waiting all the time To exist Oh How I'd love to go And feel the warm sunshine No Guts in my throat For all I know I've died I wanna go And be no one I wanna go And be free I'd like to flow in ether Floating on So carefree Trapped How I'd love to get out And leave this nightmare Not imprisoned in a box With four walls and despair
13.
Dry Hole 04:44
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Dig my grave a mile wide So I can fit my hopes and dreams inside Drop me good and deep down into the ground I've been looking to the depths of my design Search but can't find a way to feel fine Life was once a nicer ride But the fun has gone and died Now I'm not so sure I want to be here anymore Lost far below in the depths of my design Search but can't find a way to feel fine I've got no use for all this time Guess I'll head for the exit and die Can't really say it's been a pleasure but oh fucking well Take my corpse and burn it Eradicate my image Let the flames die out Dispose of the ashes way underground Bury my memory Never again speak my name My only wish is never to have existed Even for a moment Shameful, bitter freak Despised and disgusting Loner Spaced out loser Toxic negative space Please just let me disappear Do not say you care Do not say it's selfish uh Let me leave everything forever There's no coming back but it's for the better You can't break me in I'm already out This world can never win Cause I'm fucking out

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Second full length from the one man NZ project Caved.

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released January 3, 2020

Written, performed, recorded and mixed by Ryan Wallace.

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